Pebbles

Friday, February 28 at 08:52 PM:
Q from NYC wrote:
"If I ever had a guardian angel it must be you. I’m lost."

Monday, January 25 at 02:20 AM:
liuhexin from china wrote:
"13810844444"

Saturday, March 28 at 03:03 PM:
Greg Mader from Bismarck wrote:
"Miss ya, man. I loved it when you ate a banana peel on stage."

Wednesday, March 28 at 08:36 PM:
Cuman from NYC wrote:
"John Aas my electric friend, your birthday is the same as Lady Gaga!! Cue SCREAM!!!! I miss you, you big old Monster Freak!"

Friday, March 5 at 01:02 PM:
Katy Thames from Junior High School wrote:
"John was always kind, and he had this amazing laugh that just made everything seem fun."

Sunday, July 19 at 08:12 AM:
Liz S. from Shade Tree Players wrote:
"There is a facebook fan page for John. Please visit and leave a memory or three there too. Thanks Q for keeping this site going."

Sunday, June 14 at 04:02 AM:
Loren from Shade Tree Players wrote:
"John, you tried to talk me into learning to play the banjo once. Pretty sure that would have been crazy, but a bit of me has always wondered if I could have. You seemed pretty convinced."

Saturday, June 13 at 10:18 PM:
Erik W. from Bismarck High ... and John's Basement wrote:
"I was just cleaning out the basement today and came across some cassettes and artwork Johnna made for me in 1983-1984. And I remember the time in my dad's car when John asked if he could kiss me. I was a straight, Midwestern kid who loved John a lot ... but not enough to kiss him. I was way too into girls. I hated to disappoint him, and I think I lost some of him that night. I wish we could give each other a hug today, as grown men who know who we are. I miss you, John. You showed me how to be OK with just being me."

Friday, June 12 at 11:32 PM:
Kristi P. from Met him through Scott Cooke wrote:
"1. Got a favorite Depeche Mode t-shirt from him that I wore 'til it was a rag and 2. He was one of first people to just openly tell me to hold my chest up high (am more than well endowed and was very self-conscious about the "girls" .) He thought they were something I should proud of. Just that encouragment made a lasting impression on me. He was a great guy. I enjoyed the few times I spent in his company. "

Friday, June 12 at 11:31 PM:
Kristi P. from Met him through Scott Cooke wrote:
"1. Got Depeche Mode t-shirt from him that I wore 'til it was a rag and 2. He was one of first people to just openly hold my chest up high (am more than well endowed and was very self-conscious about the "girls" .) He thought they were something I should proud of. Just that encouragment made a lasting impression on me. He was a great guy. I enjoyed the few times I spent in his company. "

Friday, May 22 at 10:23 PM:
Q from NYC wrote:
"I remember and I smile. That is."

Friday, December 5 at 01:00 PM:
Joli Darling (aka Gilbertson) from BHS & Play Production @ Century High wrote:
"John, I totally admired you... as a creative genius, an incredible presence wherever you went & an actor's actor... So you can imagine how in awe I was when you approached me backstage one afternoon & told me what you thought of my acting, poetry, piano playing & artwork. It left an indelible impression on my mind & I never dreamed would've believed that day when I woke up, that someone such as yourself would feel inspired to say anything complimentary to someone such as myself. I remember the polyester party you threw. That was the bomb! And... I remember how you said that you had a total knack for picking out great music by strictly going by the album cover artwork alone. You were the first to discover the Violent Femmes I remember you once saying. I remember us posing with our heads touching back to back on stage once. I'd give anything to have that pic once again. But all my great pics from those days were lost in a move. Hopefully Mr. Barbie (or someone) out there has all of those archive photos. I remember you being in the Who's Who list as well. You were total raw talent & academically superior as well. I am certain you would have become famous. I was deeply saddened & very surprised when Jane told me you were no longer with us. May you remain with us then, in spirit. "

Wednesday, January 23 at 09:52 PM:
David from 3rd floor neumaier hall wrote:
"thanks for dying my hair in the bathroom, turning me on to so much cool music, and sharing veggie pizzas. thanks for dancing!"

Wednesday, December 19 at 11:31 AM:
Liz Schultz from Bismarck & Minneapolis wrote:
"Thanks for creating this place. John, you touched so many people. You could make true friends within moments of meeting someone. I feel so blessed to have known you for 20 incredible years. It's been 10 years now. I know you don't want us to be sad but I grieve for the wonder-filled enthusiasm you brought to life. All the friends who left their pebble here are just a fraction of the lives you touched. I miss your big bear hugs... all seemed right in the world in your arms. No one will ever forget you Johna. Can hardly wait until we are dancing again."

Friday, December 7 at 07:06 AM:
An old friend from a long, long time ago wrote:
"I was thinking about you today (12/7/2007) and I can't believe it's been almost 10 years since I got that shocking phone call. A lot has changed, but my memories of you still sparkle. "

Saturday, September 22 at 11:04 AM:
Q from Avenue A wrote:
"Just been reunited with a heavy 50's typing table which John _insisted_ I carry 10 blocks home. He was right. It's been one of the most useful and durable objects I call my own. Charmed, companionable, and just a glimmer off key. See you in dreams."

Saturday, August 25 at 05:23 PM:
The Jean Genie from The City Of Lakes wrote:
""Everyone Says 'HI'" Said you took a big trip They said you moved away Happened oh, so quietly They say Shoulda took a picture Something I could keep Buy a little frame Something cheap For you Everyone says hi Said you sailed a big ship Said you sailed away Didn't know the right thing To say "

Sunday, September 17 at 08:25 PM:
My name is Rick Blackmon from Bismarck High School wrote:
"It's Sunday Sept. 2006. I thought about John last night, I knew he lived in New York. I thought I would type his name in google and see if I could touch base with him. I did not expect to find this. John was my best friend in high school. We remained close until I left Minneapolis in 1990. John, I'm sorry, you know I loved you, you played a significant part in my life. If anyone reads this, please contact me. Rick Blackmon 404-435-7433. "

Friday, July 7 at 08:00 PM:
a grateful one from he knows wrote:
"Im grateful you are ok and remember the words of our friend John .."

Sunday, June 25 at 08:23 PM:
a grateful one from everywhere wrote:
"you once said to me when I was so lost so far from the shore Thank you for the comforting knowledge...its ok to be afraid. I am going to pass that little pearl on to a friend in need. I always smile when I think of you"

Monday, March 6 at 10:52 AM:
emma from school wrote:
"paula"

Monday, February 20 at 07:08 PM:
Christi from high school wrote:
"Though I had not seen John since high school, I thought of him often and only recently learned of his death. It pained me in a way that surprised me, that such a light, such a love, such a joy is now elsewhere. He left a mark on me and many others that will never be erased. "

Thursday, December 8 at 02:15 PM:
not important from who cares wrote:
"miss you pal"

Thursday, December 8 at 02:14 PM:
the inquisitive one from everywhere wrote:
"Mirror Mirror on the wall ...which fragment of myself is reflecting back at me? How I wish I came with that defragmenting function these fancy new machines come with. Things would be so much easier"

Thursday, November 17 at 09:40 PM:
same soul from the universe wrote:
"I got cut off. so to continue ...To wrap it up I am asking again that you please ( although we don't seem to hear in this earth place) amplify to those about to cause great pain and destruction..dissappointment to themsrelves. Perhaps looking at what you have,fighting for what you have, embracing and being happy with what you have. realizing nothing really comes from running to the next seemingly happiness. Happiness is wanting what you have albeit not complete fullfillment but wanted and revering what you have and sticking it out fighting for it...unless of course running and the easy way has really ever worked for any one. Hey different topic I hope you ran into the best person I have ever known down here on earth I was very blessed to have spent time with her. The luminous miraculous fsv"

Thursday, November 17 at 09:31 PM:
same soul from the universe wrote:
"help those searching for ways to augment happiness"

Thursday, November 17 at 09:26 PM:
a soul from the universe wrote:
"Hi there baby, I am asking for your help here in the earth place. You laugh , I know we always have your help. First in this month where we have this holiday of thanksgiving....I am so grateful to know you and every time your caricature jumped off my wall for no apparent reason...God it gave me joy because I knew you were saying Hi or fucking with me. I am calling the universe and all those who are not caporial please help. I see people I love searching to augment happiness when it is right therein them in front of them. You know I always say the great joke of the universe is that us earth dwellers, caporials will struggle with relationships all kinds we will struggle with all caporial beings we meet and yet they are all a mirror.....God I hate that but they are all just a mirror. and as hard as we try we will always need others to survive for the only way we learn and either grow or retard is in our interaction with others. I see someone I love and hate ... I see this person hurting the most incredible entity one could ever have the pleasure of breathing the same air. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAt the same time this soul is hurting themselves so much. this soul is willing to walk away like a sheep to something else not willing to fight for his best friend lover protector totourer comfort discomfort fullfillment unfullfillment joy pain understanding dissappointment joy frustration joy love. How could one not fight ....just walk away. Is this soul so silly as to think ooh they discovered all these needs they were unaware of. Bullshit ...you always knew your needs and if you didn't ask for them or demand them enough you really think someone else is the answer. If you ever loved another you have an obligation to make it clear...very clear what your needs are and give them an opportunity to respond . To be the pooer passive aggresive neglected little victim who had no idea what they need is bullshit!!!! There are no victims ! OH so you think well I have asked or at least in my little passive aggresive MO I am sure I must have oooh thats right maybe I really didn't because what if I were rejected. So, I'll just be poor little me who is sure they must have heard me. First clue we all speak different languages and have different perceptions if it is that important you need to make it really clear even if oh my god it may mean CONFRONTATION or perceived confrontation. Please my little non caporial who can summon all the love in the universe work overtime on this poor soul who could be hurting himself so. As much as I hate him and thinking of what he is doing makes me unable to breathe...he does happen to be one of the greatest experiences in this lifetime an incredible beautiful insightful creatue(so what happened you ask) however human temporarily expressing himself in human form...and you probably remember how problematic or just plain stupid that can be. I almost made a similiar mistake ...thank God ...I did not. I met some one who was filling all those open holes not being filled by my partner. It felt great ..and the more my partner let me down or didn't do just what I wanted I ran to my new fullfillment. Partial fullfillment . I looked around and as fabulous as it may have felt to have these holes filled ...well lets see this new wonderment was fullfilling areas not fullfilled by my partner who was and had for years filled all these other areas? Oh yeah my best friend,lover partner.....and hey isit possible that I may not fullfill all his needs...God forbid. and have I really stomped and shouted and let him know that these newly discovered needs were deal breakers? Don't I owe that much to this partner who has held me protected me stood by me when I was horrible. Then it occored to me how could I be so willing to even consider someone who had no regard for my relationship of a decade. Someone who would actually encourage me to leave that behind and who would manipulate my vulnerrt"

Saturday, March 5 at 01:52 PM:
a friend from nyc wrote:
"Hi teacher, student Thank you"

Thursday, December 25 at 05:59 PM:
Sweetbaby Silvernale from Out and About wrote:
"It has been so long and I still miss him. I miss the way he danced. Watching him dance was inspiration. Keep dancing you beautiful man!"

Friday, November 28 at 10:22 AM:
A pal from a shady tree in the chilly north wrote:
"We all miss you. Thank God you live on in spirit and in memory. You touched a lot of lives. So much time has passed yet it seems like just yesterday we were all gathered, you, Tim, Stevie, Lisa, all crazy, all together. I miss those times, I miss you. Things will never be the same again. Thank-you for bringing joy into so many people's lives. "

Friday, August 22 at 05:29 PM:
b-lew from a long time friend wrote:
"flipside and she's my baby mama. i do anything to hear those words come out your mouth"

Friday, August 8 at 02:39 AM:
Mr.Ass Knows from everywhere all around wrote:
"I feel we talk more often now, interesting and comforting and sad why you had to go and change form for me to listen feel ..I smile often ,usually when I know your here and ther e and everywhere Hey like right now I am grinning. This is my reality and we all have our own reality . Thank You for your gentle wisdom (guidance). I didn't expect you to change lanes so suddenly I mean you were just driving in your car. Gratitude for you . There are lyric people and then there are beat people "

Saturday, April 19 at 04:26 AM:
A GENNIE IN A BOTTLE from THE CITY OF LAKES wrote:
"I have always loved you for the that sudden kiss."

Saturday, June 23 at 11:07 PM:
Q from New York wrote:
"I miss his raucousness and would really like to have him to slam into tonight."

Monday, April 2 at 09:58 AM:
Kurt G. from a job and a bar wrote:
"John was one funny, funny, squirrelly, loving guy. I only knew him a little and briefly, but he'll always stay vivid in this head."

Thursday, January 11 at 09:07 PM:
Scotty Cooke from Minneapolis-Lamd of Mary Tyler-Moore more more wrote:
""In my reality..." Mr. OZ was all about inserting himself in other's reality...and no one did this more perfectly and lovingly than John"

Monday, November 13 at 09:46 PM:
Steve John from London wrote:
"Ali Myie"

Monday, May 8 at 05:49 PM:
Karen and Rita from Didn't know John wrote:
"xoxoxo"

Monday, May 1 at 05:53 AM:
Jennifer B. from thru friends & fun wrote:
"I'm still very sad - I wish there were more of his brilliant collages on the web - "

Wednesday, November 10 at 09:38 AM:
Im fin from oman wrote:
"no"

Wednesday, October 20 at 06:39 PM:
your friend again from some would say before atlantis wrote:
"my friend. although i didn't get to see you this time it feels good to know that you've touched the hearts of so many at this time. please visit me when my eyes are closed. we'll talk about old times and plan for the future."

Wednesday, October 20 at 06:34 PM:
two happy souls from many lifetimes wrote:
"I feel you around all the time and i know i am truely blessed to have John in my experiences John you are the best the very best at touching people or filling gaps that no one else could I just have to smile because I know you are smiling too "

Monday, June 28 at 08:47 AM:
Kirby Christopher from He was my uncle. wrote:
"He was the best uncle in the world!"

Wednesday, September 30 at 03:07 PM:
Nicole Aebersold from New York City wrote:
"John - Thank you. You come to me often when I'm having a hard time of it...you remind to laugh..that things aren't as difficult as they might seem. I miss you."

Friday, August 14 at 08:53 AM:
Ken Alarcon from Minneapolis & New York City wrote:
"John - Through losing you my friend I now realize that God gifted us, I only wish he could return you "

Monday, August 10 at 02:56 AM:
mamai_was_here from freind wrote:
"musk"

Saturday, August 1 at 11:00 PM:
missy from cuman's apartment in the village wrote:
"John showed me a side of nyc i'll never forget. His funny smile, his personable style, truly a unique individual. live fast. i only knew him for a day but his memory will last a life time. "

Thursday, April 2 at 02:51 PM:
shawnee from mpls theaters parks clubs alleys&all the best places wrote:
"john my sweet lovely man of fun & freedom- so many fabulous times were had between us and I am constantly reminded of them in great detail everytime I turn a corner because you made them all so special and unique. You are still in the music and the slippery dance floor and the rippling wet goosebumps and sweaty platinum dreads. My sense of living became more defined when I met you and I intend on trying to pass that positive aliveness to as many people as I can. I love you XXX OOO"

Thursday, January 29 at 06:48 PM:
Mom(Doris) from from his birth and on wrote:
"As a little child your love of life became known to all with whom you came in contact. This joy became more infectious as you grew into adulthood. You've left me with many warm, wonderful memories. Times we shared on our trip to New Orleans and San Diego when you were 17 and I was 60, intracacies of getting a stage production ready to be enjoyed by an audience, often including you and me, introducing to many of your special friends, whom I now count as my friends. Your legacy to me is the many colors of your lifes' prism, ever changing, but always colorful and filled with love."

Friday, January 23 at 01:42 PM:
Ann from his birth and on wrote:
"After hearing many people say that you came in and out of their lives, I realize that even though I'm your sister, the same has been true for me. Every phase I shared with you made my life richer. My own personal motto of "Enjoy every minute. There's plenty of time to be dead." worked well with yours. You didn't take no for an answer if you believed there was something I should experience. Thanks to you, I have shared time with so many wonderful people over the years. Now you are gone, but we must all somehow keep in touch with each other, continuing those connections you began for us. When I went from Minneapolis to the west coast and you to the east, I missed you. Now I miss you even more."

Thursday, January 22 at 04:37 PM:
tommy from college / life / work wrote:
"It's not getting any easier. The days pass and I wait for you to walk through the door. "

Monday, January 19 at 03:33 PM:
A Friend from The Journey wrote:
"I hope youre laughing and having aJohnie Walker Red"

Monday, January 19 at 03:21 PM:
LEESA from A man with a blue wig brought us together wrote:
"I love you John and can't believe your gone well I can't believe I don't get to see you again.John Aas had an incredible way of touching peoples lives He touched mine ina very special way. John I'm Happy you were born and most grateful to have known you."

Sunday, January 18 at 12:49 PM:
Cuman from New York wrote:
"John filled a place in my life that few understand. He is greatly missed."